weekend

[abka]

Despite having what was supposed to be a nice lazy weekend I was actually pretty miserable and moody the last couple days. I think it was the heat and humidity. Saturday I went for a run (really dumb to run in the afternoon when it's hot and humid, but I try to take advantage when I actually really want to run) and got a headache that lasted most of the day (no it was not dehydration, I drank so much water that I was peeing every hour from 3pm-midnight). Sunday I just felt yucky and crabby despite finally having caught up on sleep (meaning I wake up after 9 hours instead of 12). Even spending time in our (thankfully) air conditioned bedroom didn't help much, nor did normally distracting pursuits like t.v., reading (really good book on Central European Avant-gardes), and video games (actually who am I kidding video games usually frustrate me rather than bringing me joy). Even cookies, used as a last resort on Sunday only helped temporarily. Didn't resort to alcohol, that usually only works when paired with social situations. Not PMS, guess I just wanted to spend 48 hours crying? I'm back to blaming the heat and humidity. All I know is that my body, my mood, my emotions, my spirit, nothing was happy. This morning my stomach's upset and I'm considering going home this afternoon (I have an 11am meeting). How lovely when emotional things move right into my GI tract (or maybe it was the fish on Sunday, but Denis is fine, but then his system isn't as sensitive as mine). The salmon was actually really good, thanks Denis, and for putting up with me all weekend.

Don't mean to be bitchy, intellectually I'm actually feeling pretty positive about things and somewhat motivated to work on my reading, studying Croatian, Fulbright/grad. school applications, exercise routine, healthy eating etc, but physically/emotionally I just want to go back to bed, curl up in a ball, and cry/whine while finishing that box of oreos. Ugh I hate feeling/being this way. (And why am I using so many slashes in this entry? I'm starting to irritate myself). Things are going so well, why do I feel like crap? Okay, you've probably got the point by now. Hopefully I'll get over it by tomorrow. Hope all of you had a much better weekend (a weekend you want to write about on livejournal, yes? entries are getting pretty scarce, or maybe it's just because I'm now in front of a computer all day).

Comments

[mrsjadephoenix.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry to hear you're not feeling well, Amelia. I think everyone goes through phases like that sometimes where things just feel crappy and you need to be bitchy for a while. I know I've been going through something like that on and off the past few weeks. I'm glad that at least intellectually things are going fairly well. I hope that continues, and that the physical and emotional stuff catches up with it!