Amelia

It's been a crash and burn kind of day. Basically all I've wanted to do is sleep and cry. Complicated by the fact that I woke up two hours early today due to heartburn (wtf I really only rarely got heartburn and not so long after I've eaten and I've never woken up from it before). Also having lower back pain and generalized despair. Awesome.

Made it to work. Class was fine (unofficial subtitle was: sex, violence, and creepy dolls aka surrealist objects including Bellmer's Poupees, at least I didn't have to explain the sexual connotations of Oppenheim's Object this time, they seemed to get it.) The gray skies in the am didn't help, but blue skies on the way back did a little. I really hate walking in heels and tights with a hole in the foot though.

I got some good news, a paper I submitted was accepted to a conference in Brighton, England in July. I'm a fan of the work of one of the major presenters (my adviser assures me he's really nice, so it will be cool to meet him). I should be really excited, I am, well, I was, basically good news, but didn't pull me out of my funk, will hopefully revel in it soon.

Afternoon was deeply unproductive. There was some crying and unhealthy comfort eating (which now I feel a little physically gross from, duh). Oh and some impromptu napping (thank goodness). I didn't make it to the gym or dance class. D. made a healthy, yummy dinner (thank goodness). Talked on skype to my mother and sister who are fighting about my sister's delivery plans (really I do not want to deal with this). Watched some bsg, that didn't really help with the crying.

Whatever hormonal shift has to happen to change this it can come any time now. Please.

I got D.'s headcold and now am stuffy and headache-y and miserable (and clearly also whiny). I couldn't really sleep last night so I got up early (I guess that was good). I'm going to teach tonight, but it is going to suck. Blech. Back to grading exams, double blech.