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7 deadly sins day 7 lust
Day 1 - Pride. Seven great things about yourself.
Day 2 - Greed. Seven worldly material desires
Day 3 - Wrath. Seven things that piss you off.
Day 4 - Sloth. Seven things you neglect to do.
Day 5 - Envy. Seven qualities you lack and covet.
Day 6 - Gluttony. Seven guilty pleasures.
Day 7 - Lust. Seven love secrets.
1. My very first crush was named Kelly. I was in kindergarden.
2. In highschool I would fall in and out of love quite easily. One day I would be interested and the next have no interest. I broke up with people a lot. I think I was viewed as flaky and/or bitchy, when my intention was to be emotionally honest.
3. That was never the case with my marriage. Although I wonder if I held on to love too long, if I was naive or foolish or too stubborn. Or maybe I fell out of love and didn't realize it, or he fell out of love with me and I didn't see it? I don't know if I can trust myself in terms of love anymore.
4. Sometimes I worry that it will happen with my current relationship. That I will just fall out of love as easily as I fell into it. That love is something I have no control over that just happens, or doesn't happen, or stops happening. It's scary.
5. I think my parents love my sister more then me some times. It hurts my feelings when they do things like plan vacations with my sister and don't even mention they're going to me (when I would like to at least be invited). I know my parents love me, and that it's very important to them to spend a lot of time with their first and only grandchild, and even absent him that my sister spent a lot more time at home after high school then I did. She went into the same profession as my dad forgoodnesssake (and interned in his office), and she has always been very close to my mom being the baby of the family (and my mother as a 2nd child has a special affinity for her 2nd child). I know it's just bruised ego and sibling rivalry.
6. I still carry torches. Not only for obvious people like D. (who I broke up with about 5 minutes ago in emotional time), but for each of my four great loves. Maybe's it's 5, one I can't decide on. 4.5?
7. I sometimes mix up sex and love but only one direction. I often want to sleep with people I love (although there are lots of exceptions to this, family being the most obvious), but just because I sleep with someone doesn't mean I love them.
Day 2 - Greed. Seven worldly material desires
Day 3 - Wrath. Seven things that piss you off.
Day 4 - Sloth. Seven things you neglect to do.
Day 5 - Envy. Seven qualities you lack and covet.
Day 6 - Gluttony. Seven guilty pleasures.
Day 7 - Lust. Seven love secrets.
1. My very first crush was named Kelly. I was in kindergarden.
2. In highschool I would fall in and out of love quite easily. One day I would be interested and the next have no interest. I broke up with people a lot. I think I was viewed as flaky and/or bitchy, when my intention was to be emotionally honest.
3. That was never the case with my marriage. Although I wonder if I held on to love too long, if I was naive or foolish or too stubborn. Or maybe I fell out of love and didn't realize it, or he fell out of love with me and I didn't see it? I don't know if I can trust myself in terms of love anymore.
4. Sometimes I worry that it will happen with my current relationship. That I will just fall out of love as easily as I fell into it. That love is something I have no control over that just happens, or doesn't happen, or stops happening. It's scary.
5. I think my parents love my sister more then me some times. It hurts my feelings when they do things like plan vacations with my sister and don't even mention they're going to me (when I would like to at least be invited). I know my parents love me, and that it's very important to them to spend a lot of time with their first and only grandchild, and even absent him that my sister spent a lot more time at home after high school then I did. She went into the same profession as my dad forgoodnesssake (and interned in his office), and she has always been very close to my mom being the baby of the family (and my mother as a 2nd child has a special affinity for her 2nd child). I know it's just bruised ego and sibling rivalry.
6. I still carry torches. Not only for obvious people like D. (who I broke up with about 5 minutes ago in emotional time), but for each of my four great loves. Maybe's it's 5, one I can't decide on. 4.5?
7. I sometimes mix up sex and love but only one direction. I often want to sleep with people I love (although there are lots of exceptions to this, family being the most obvious), but just because I sleep with someone doesn't mean I love them.